Title: The Way Through!

Gender: Female

Age: Ageless

Sun Sign: Libra

Chinese Sign: Metal Boar

Location: Northern, VA

By the time I was eighteen years old I had survived years and years of emotional, psychological and physical abuse at the hands of my father, a controlling, and often times psychotic tyrant. Because of my father, I had experienced starvation in a tent in Mexico, dehydration in a desert in Utah, hypothermia during a blizzard in Cleveland, a botched suicide attempt, and several bouts of clinical depression. (And I didn't even mention the writing on the wall or the axe stuck in the front door. Oh it was a wild ride for sure!)

Like so many who have suffered through childhoods filled with terror and trauma, I was determined to escape and create the kind of life that I had always envisioned, one filled with stability, love, peace and happiness.

Why was it then, that after following all the rules, after growing up, graduating from high school, beginning a career and starting my own family, I still suffered from a deep and profound sense of emptiness and grief? Fear, pain, anger and depression seemed to follow me everywhere I went, no matter what my achievements or how successful I appeared to be. Was it me? Yes it was me. I kept looking outside for answers, but the answers weren't outside. The were all inside of me. Always inside of me.

Finally, after suffering for years with clinical depression, I experienced a severe mental breakdown or a spriritual experience, depending on your persepective. Regardless, the result was that I was forced to turn around and face everything I'd been running from: fear, pain, anger, depression, grief. Everthing I had tried to deny from my past came rushing over me like a tidal wave. At first it was overwhelming. I thought I'd drown in waves and waves of negative emotions. But no. I survived for a reason.

“The only way out is the way through.” What do I mean by that? Well, there was this story about this Tibetian monk escaping this room full or dragons, which was relayed to me by one of my spiritual teachers on my journey through. Basically, what he was telling me was that in order to overcome my fears, I would have to face them. That was quite terrifying, but it was the only way.

Currently, I am writing a book entitled The Way Through. It's my personal story about how I moved from a life filled with pain, grief and all sorts of unrest to health, peace and happiness. I found my way through.

But that is not the end of my story. After finding my way through, it occurred to me that there was still so much more work to be done on my life's journey. I am to be an emotional Harriet Tubman…I am destined to show others the way through…and basically, this is what I do. I show others how to find their way through, and I love it! Anyway, that's me. Check me out at:

www.authoramberlisa.com

Love, Peace and Happiness in 2008

Amber Lisa

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